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Name: WhatAWaster
Location: Murfreesboro, Tennessee, United States
Birthday: 7/15/1988
Gender: Female
Interests: I'm a classy girl. I'll trade you my friendship for a bottle of your wine.
Expertise: I sit around and act productive...
Occupation: mover shaker lover quaker
Industry: Entertainment
Message: message me
Website: visit my website
AIM:  leaky vinyl
Member Since:
7/22/2004
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| i've had this thing for 1,285 (or maybe it was 1,258? i'm dyslexic, i'm sorry.)
that's a pretty big number.
i've stuck with this longer than i have any relationship.
maybe i should start dating my virtually nonexisting blog.
we seem to work out, most days.
anyway, if anyone still reads this. i hope this finds you well.
(*pssst* i love you guise!)
♥peace. | | |
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Running With Scissors
By Annette Bening, Brian Cox, Joseph Fiennes, Evan Rachel Wood, Alec Baldwin, Joseph Cross, Jill Clayburgh, Gwyneth Paltrow, Gabrielle Union, Patrick Wilson, Kristin Chenoweth, Dagmara Dominczyk, Colleen Camp, Jack Kaeding, Gabriel Guedj, Nancy Cassaro, Omid Abtahi, Julie Remala, Will Carter, Bonnie Weis
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Go rent it.
It's almost as amazing as me. | | |
| since i started this xanga. isn't that terribly exciting?
what makes me sad is that xanga used to be so cool. and now it's all about myspace and facebook. :( jessica is talking about pulling out. i'm amused. ? i made the apple sign. jealous? you should be.
i really should be studying. but i don't really feel motivated for it. i'm dropping another class. so i'm only going to end up with 2 classes. but i kind of have to do it. i don't want to flunk out of college. i did that with webb and it was lame. and i still hate that it happened... i just wish i was a better student. i'm getting better. i'm actually half way apply myself. which is amazing. because i haven't acutally applied myself in years in school. so BAM!!!
anyway. i thought i would post because i'm bored and i have nothing else to do.
Final Thought: Guys, pull out. | | |
| I really don't update this enough. Which is sad, considering from 7th grade to 11th grade this was lyke my life. I'm going to try and update more now, because well, I have nothing else to do in my life.
Here's what's up, I suppose.
Spring break was somewhat of a bust. Even though I got to see everyone, which made me happie. It just kind of sucked for some reason. Don't ask me how or why, because I don't really know. I just get a feeling that it wasn't all that I wanted it to be. Bbbut I did see Black Snake Moan with Kayley Marie and Greer Clark. And it basically changed my life. Well, the first minute of the movie did. And if you've seen the movie you know EXACTLY what I'm talking about.
I could go for a glass of wine right now.
Now I'm back at school, trying to pass, but not really putting forth much effort. I hate myself. I've never been a good student I'm not really sure why I thought I would be in college. I don't really know if college is even for me. I want it to be so bad, but I don't really get the feeling that I'm happy. Maybe it's because I just hate where I am. I don't know. And it sucks because I'm dating someone with a 4.0 and he's all smart and, I'm just not that bright. I'm scared that his 4.0 will eat my 1.0 one night while it's sleeping...
The things I know, I fuckin know. But everything else that doesn't really matter that much to me, I don't know. The "everything else" mentioned in the pervious sentence would be my Gen. Ed. classes. I hate them, and I hope they fall off a chair. Like Justin Sheffield. Fuckin loser. Hopefully everything will work out. Because I don't want to move back home. That's the only thing that's really pushing me to stay in school. The pure hatred of being in my house with my family. I love them, but I don't think I can not live with then for a year, and then go back to living with them. They're crazy.
Bbbut, this summer is going to ROOOOCK!!! Oh my god. I'm so excited. Why?, you may ask, well I'll fuckin tell you!!!
The day after I have my last final is Todd's birthday, and my little brothers birthday. How I'm going to split up my time between them, I'm unsure, because I love them both... I'm sure I'll figure it out. Then I shall party until June 14. On that beautiful day I'll go to Bonnaroo, and party there. And then I'll come back from Bonnaroo and party some more at home. Aaand then Addie is coming to see me. And Brianna too! Oh my god, I'm so excited. And then somewhere in there is Rock Camp. OH MY LORD!!! Then I'm gonna go with some people to see Pete Yorn a million times. We're still doing that right??? I don't know.
I yearn for summer, and warm weather, sunglasses and dresses. Dancing outside, late night parties. I miss my friend that went away. Beach Boys weather. I miss you. I love you. Come back to me. I'm so close to it I can taste it, and I want it. I want to play on playgrounds of my old elementary school. I want to go to the square with Todd like we used to, before we had to stay inside because it was too cold. I want classes to end. And not have to worry about how well I'm doing in a class, knowing I'm not doing well. But most of all, I miss not having to fuckin care. Because in the summer, I don't have a care it the world. And I love it. I love you summer, and all your colors and all the sunshine. And all the smiles, and hugs, and love that is everywhere.
Until then, I'm patiently waiting... | | |
| I rarely update this, but once in a while I remember the world of xanga, and I am compelled to post something.
Well, in about 30 minutes I will be taking my last of 3 exams and I will then be finished with my first semester in college. It's been tricky to figure out out how things work, because it's so much differnet from the private school my parents have kept me hostage in for most of my education. I've realized that I'm not as smart as I'd like to claim I am. I do realize that I have some things holding me back from being like "everyone else" and even though knowing that and having to live with that eats at me daily, I don't get myself enough credit. I'm a smart kid. I just don't apply myself. It's almost like a trap. I can't fully explain it, but once I know how to put it into words, I'm sure I will.
College is alot differnt than I thought it would be. I thought it would be a nonstop party. And most of the time, I'd rather sleep and party, when last year I would give my left nut to party for one night. Partying is fun, don't get me wrong. But sleep is heavenly. Through the whole "college experience" I've learned that things won't ever be like they were in high school. Sometimes I'm thankful for that, because honestly high school sucked. Even thought I've moved on from that "high school state of mind" that doesn't mean that I don't miss it. I don't miss it as much as I miss the people. I'm the type of person that hate's change, but is accepting when it comes along (most of the time). It just takes me a while to adjust to the new things that the change brings.
I've learned to open myself up, make mistakes, because that's how I learn. Sometimes my mistakes get me into trouble with people, but I always learn something in the end. It may not be the smartest way of learning, but it works for me. And you can't hate me for that. Well, I suppose you could, but I would be really sad if you did. Because I love you. For realz.
I'm in a quite stable relationship. And I've never been happier. Having Todd around isn't a burden, and that's something that is very new to me. I liked hanging out with guys that I dated, but I could never really hang out, there was always something stopping us (distance was probably the main one). Todd and I see each other close to everyday. And it's always fun. It doesn't matter what we do, because I know that the two of us can make it worthwhile.
I've found that I don't hate my parents. I just need my space. Which I'm sure is the situation for all college students, or just people my age. When I don't have to deal with them all the time telling me what I can and can't do, it's a lot easier to make them happy. I'm sure if they were around they would still do it, but living 3 minutes away from home has never been so plesant.
Basically what I'm trying to say is:
My grades may suck balls, but I've grown up a little bit in the past 4? 5? months. And I'm damned proud of me self!!!
ps- i forgot to inculde that I have a serious crush on this man:
Isn't he adorable?! His name is George. You may know him from playing in the simi revolutionary band, The Beatles. We're in love. kbye. | | |
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